I'm going through a divorce. I've been separated from my husband since early March, but because of citizenship laws, I was only able to file 3 days ago. He should be served the papers either today or tomorrow...
I do not write poetry. Poetry, for me, is what happens when too much emotion builds up and it finally releases in a spew of word vomit. Poetry for me is overflow. An accident. A reflex. And it's been happening a lot lately.
On the other hand, with this separation and me not being able to find a new job yet, I have also made a lot of progress on my current novel.
No one should have to go through what I've gone through, but, as I've already learned, so many people have. When you accidentally bind yourself to someone who suffers from narcissism, the only thing to do is to take a knife and cut yourself free. And that hurts. Unimaginably. But at least I know this pain has a purpose.
The Phoenix has always resonated with me, and now I understand. Everything is burning. Pretty soon I'll be left with nothing but ashes. But I'm looking forward to what comes after that.
Phoenix